The Soundtrack of My Life VI

Today’s song is sort of depressing.  I do love this song, though.  It has a very deep meaning to me, as it does to most who know and love it.  I’ve been in this situation more than once and it’s difficult to deal with…and that’s an understatement. 

3 Libras by A Perfect Circle

threw you the obvious and you flew
with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i’ve looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious
and you don’t see me.
but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there’s more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.
so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.
oh well. apparently nothing.
you don’t see me.
you don’t see me at all.

It’s tough when you think you mean something to someone and it turns out that you’re just a “name in (his) recollection thrown down among a million same.”  Especially when that person is, by all moral and societal standards, “supposed to” care.  BUT…maybe “i am just expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded.”  It never occurred to me that this person was a person and not just filling a role for my needs.  Hmm…interesting.  The focus changes a couple of times in the song which makes me wonder who is to blame.  I see this person “naked and oblivious” but he “doesn’t see me.”  How can I expect something out of someone who has no ability to deliver it?